...more random thoughts and random news...blah blah blah...
I should fix my sleeping hours. I think they call it a biological clock.
I think mine was either stolen or misplaced and got lost when I was
a kid. So, if I ever make it to be 80 it means that I've spent half my
life sleeping poorly. Another thing I should do is quit smoking at
some point. I think that's the hardest one. I have already fixed my
eating habits. I eat ice cream and sometimes crappy food twice a
week. It used to be almost everyday. I swim at least 5 days a week
but that won't last long cause I can't stay in Aegina all year long..
...unless I swim in a pool in Piraeus which is not a great idea
cause my stupid skin is too sensitive to chlorine and the such...
I learn yoga 3 times a week for about 2 hours per session. I'm also
doing some weird type of weight training 3 or 4 times a week...
although you can't call it weight training cause the weights I use can
probably be lifted by a little child. It's one of my weird ideas of training
where you have no breaks, you do lots of different exercises for each
muscle group (but no legs), and each set is around 16-20 repetitions
(instead of 8 - 10). In-between sets there are no breaks. You either do
other exercises such as ab crunches or you do 2 different exercises back
to back...if that makes any sense. I suppose it's a bit more cardiovascular
that way. Also you have no danger of having your muscles grow too big.
You do look a bit ripped at some point though (if you don't eat crap all
the time). The reason I do all that? Uhm...it makes me feel better in the
end of the day and I suppose it's a bit more healthy for me. It also takes
my mind away from some problems while I do all this...but not always.
Ok, enough about healthy crap.
Now...as time goes by and I learn more about life (whether I want to
or not), I have more trouble understanding some people. Is that nuts
or what? It's strange how we each perceive reality...or maybe it's strange
how each ones mind lives in a slightly (or more than slightly) different reality.
Sometimes I think it's a miracle that we are even able to communicate at all.
Time seems to have different value than it had some years ago and I'm
pretty sure it's going to keep changing as I grow older. I seem to become
more egocentric in the sense that if I don't, I will never get anything done.
I used to worry about everything and everyone...not that I still don't. I mean
I can't help it. It's one of the "flaws" I picked up from both my parents...but the
time I spend doing that seems to change drastically. It all depends on some
factors though...such as my personal evaluation on how much each problem
or each person is worth worrying about. And that is fluid too. I mean it changes
according to how situations and behaviors change...if that makes any sense.
Egotistic? Maybe...I just think it's a survival skill but I may be wrong.
Another thing which troubles me is honesty. I don't think I can live without
being honest and without others being honest to me. And I don't mean
honest such as "you look like shit in that shirt". I mean honest as to how
people feel about each other and honest about what they want or don't want
from each other. Why is that so tough for some people?
I used to hang out with this girl and we used to have really nice conversations
about anything and everything. She once told me that she wants to be completely
honest with everyone. That made me smile inside. Then she said that she might
even have to be "brutally" honest in some situations. I keep thinking about that
conversation and I'm wondering how honesty can be brutal. Is there violence in it?
I'm not being sarcastic. I am having trouble understanding it and I would like to
to understand why some people call honesty "brutal".
I think I blabbered enough for one night.
I'm gonna go blabber a bit more in pelaginoi
and post some music too.
A hug for everyone (I could use a hug, damnit!)